The true identity of love.

When your in love with someone the world around you seems to be a blur, all you can think about is how happy you are and how you don’t care what anyone else thinks because it’s just you and him/her fighting the world together. 

But then when you feel nothing can possibly happen because your with the one you feel your destined to be with, 

Reality checks in. 

In the matter of minutes,hours, days everything can change. 

You begin to doubt yourself and question yourself what you ever did wrong and why you deserved this when you was so happy, until you just stop. 

You stop listening to the sad songs,

You stop watching the depressing movies,

You stop answering everyone’s apologies,

And finally you stop the tears running down your face.

And your realise what happened. 
Everything now makes sense. 

The way he/she played with your mind keeping it captive under his/her spell making you only see what he/she wanted you to see, as to everyone else who knew who he/she really was. 

You see this, the perfect image and  person you want to see and believe hypnotised into your head. 

That’s until you beat him/her.

You begin to find out who they are one step at a time until you break free from their spell revealing who they are truelly,

Not the person you believed them to be.

He/she was the:

The person you were in love with all along.

The person who played the false act.

The person you knew you could see  all along but you didn’t want to see.



October makeup favourites ๐Ÿ’„๐Ÿ‚

Last month all my dark berry lips and dark nudes came out of hibernation ready for autumn โ˜บ๏ธ๐Ÿ‚

I seem to really start to enjoy experimenting different products and shades at this time of year. When the evenings start getting longer, the days get shorter and the weather gets colder. I feel itโ€™s a great time to change up your makeup style and introduce some darker tones, berry lips and golden eyes all the way!

So here are some of my favourite makeup products from last month. ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ

1. Benefit work famous neautrals eyeshadow palette ยฃ23.50

Recently I have been loving this palette, especially if I don’t have a lot of time in the morning I can just whack a one of these on and they last all day without creasing!

There are 2 cream eyeshadows:

– my two cents (golden organge colour).                                                         – birthday suit (silvery with a hint of gold colour)

These creams are very pigmented and are so easy to use. They are a great consistency and don’t feel heavy on the eyes. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

There are 4 powder eyeshadows:

– call my buff (white/creamy colour with a hint of shimmer).        – it’s complicated (pink/coral shimmery colour)                                – kiss me I’m tipsy (dark brown colour with hints of gold shimmer).                                              – guilty pleasure (gold shimmer colour) 

The powders are also very pigmented apart from call my buff which isn’t as pigmented. They have no fall out and apply really easily.  

Overall I fricking love this palette a lot ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ’•

2.  Old No7 palette

(These eyeshadows don’t actually have names because it’s really old)

This palette was originally my Mom’s but I kinda borrowed it forever ๐Ÿ˜‹

The pigment in these shadows is amazing. They are so easy to apply and have a lovely finish to them.

My favourites are definetley the golds and the white and pink (at the top), especially as it’s autumn I’ve been loving going for a gold eye these two golds are gorgeous for it and really bring the blue out in my eyes. 

Definetley try and get this palette if you can still buy it! The colours are amazing ๐Ÿ˜

3. Maybelline lash sensational mascara ยฃ7.99

Everybody raves about this mascara and how good it is, and honestly there speaking the truth.

It makes my lashes look so long and full making my eyes look bigger than they already are.

The mascara itself never gets clumpy (until it’s really old) but I never have to pull clumps off my eyelashes or anything like that.

Basically everybody needs this mascara in their life. ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿผ

4. Nivea men post shave balm ยฃ5.35

Ik your probably thinking, why on earth are you using men’s shaving balm?!!?  

Well 1.its a great primer to prime your face with and keeps your makeup on all day locking it in place and just smells really nice. ๐Ÿ˜‚

But yeah I use this all over my face before applying my makeup and it wakens me up and makes me feel really fresh. It really helps to make sure my makeup lasts all day, especially at school doing pe!

If you don’t want to spend a lot of money on a primer this works perfectly as an alternate and works just as good. 

5. Rimmel Kate Moss sculpting ยฃ6.99

This new sculpting kit by Kate Moss is actually really good. 

It has a lovely fairy golden highlight that is very pigmented and creates a beautiful glow on the cheek. A warm fairly shimmery bronze colour that’s great to bronzer up your face when your tan begins to fade. โ˜บ๏ธ And a gorgeous shimmery coral blush colour that works on any skin tone. 

My palette is in 002 coral glow, but there is two other similar ones. 

6.  Avon brow definer ยฃ4.00

I’m not to keen on really bold eyebrows so I tend to go for a toned down eyebrow look and with Avon’s eyebrow pencils it very easy to achieve this.

They aren’t quite a pencil more like a waxy sort of consistency and applies very easy but if your heavy handed then you have to be careful. ๐Ÿ˜‚

It is very pigmented and adds a good amount of colour to the eyebrow. 

7.Collection lasting perfection concealer ยฃ4.19

This concealer has such good coverage to cover up them dark circles from late nights of watching Netflix and then iggnorant spots that pop up at the wrong times. 

The consistency is not to thick or too thin and apples relays nicely. It doesn’t cake up over the day or crease under the eye . With the primer it glides onto my face perfectly.

I would highly recommend this concealer as its a great drugstore product and if you don’t want to spend lots of money on a high end concealer this is a great dupe for many. 

8. Tanya Burr cosmetics matte lipstick ยฃ5.99

I loooooooooooove this matte lipstick in Martha Moo sooo much it’s unbelievable!!! ๐Ÿ˜

I wear this nearly everyday as its such a lovely dark pinky nude colour and just looks great on any skin time and works well with any makeup look.

The lipstick is so creamy and not very heavy on the lips. It drys matte in about 30 seconds and lasts a long time on the lips.

It doesn’t come out streaky and has good coverage of the colour so you only need one thin coat of it. (Also it smells really nice ๐Ÿ˜‹)

Seriously recommend getting this as you will absolutely love it just like I do. Plus the name is so cute๐Ÿ’• And its fairy cheap and drugstore so it won’t cost a lot like some other liquid to matte lipstick.

Creating a gold eye berry/nude lip look is one of my favourites around this time of the year as I love the autumn and winter seasons, so when this time of the year comes around i get excited to pop out the dark lips and bobble hats ๐Ÿ˜‹๐Ÿ’•

Let me know in the comments some beauty products you love at this time of the year or makeup looks you love creating. 

Kallih xxx
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Heartbreaks ๐Ÿ’”

You know when your so in love with someone you feel like it will last forever and grow old together.

Well that’s only a fairytale and we’re in reality.

I thought that the day would never come because I thought we had something special?

But it happened.

I’ve never told you about my (ex) boyfriend but we broke up.

The first few days were really hard and tbh so have the past few weeks but you just have to keep pushing on.

Me and my (ex) boyfriend, when we came back to school from the summer holidays weren’t as close as we was before.

(We had been going out for about 4 months)

And he seemed to wanted to talk to some other girls than he wanted to talk to me.

He would never come over to me at lunch or break to say hi or never even helped me when I was having a panic attack.

At this point I knew I needed to say something but before I did he told me something.

He started going on about how he still loved me and loved everything about me but if he loved like how I loved him he wouldn’t have broken up with me.

He said he was getting a lot of grief and hatred of some people and he was fighting a loosing battle.

But I thought you were meant to fight for what you loved.

I thought wrong according to him.

And I’ve came to realise that he was such a bad boyfriend and that I deserve someone who would actually care for me and love me properly.

He did leave me heartbroken but now heart is beating with pride and happiness.

Everyone will experience a heartbreak whether it’s horrible or just a little primary school crush there is one thing I’ll say about them:

Heartbreaks are never easy.

However you just have to give yourself time to go through the anger and upset to get to the other side.

Imagining it like a bridge.

Your crossing it leaving them and  all the sad emotions behind and moving on forward into your new, better life and the happy emotions.

It has been said that music does help cure the pain, so I’ve got a list of the best songs to help you get through the emotional rollercoaster that is a breakup.

  1. ‘Gotta go my own way’ – Troy and Gabriella (HSM)
  2. ‘Say you won’t let go’ – James Arthur
  3. ‘Someone like you’ – Adele
  4. ‘Best thing I never had’ – Beyoncรฉ
  5. ‘Shoutout to my ex’ – Little Mix
  6. ‘A thousand years’ – Christina Perri
  7. ‘Little things’ – One Direction
  8. ‘Only love can hurt like this’ – Paloma Faith
  9. ‘Just a little bit of your heart’ – Ariana Grande
  10. ‘I will always love you’ – Whitney Houston
  11. ‘Single ladies(Put a ring on it)’- Beyoncรฉ
  12. ‘We are never eve getting back together’ – Taylor Swift

Listening to these songs could make you feel better, or it could make you cry.

I certainly felt both.

Whilst listening to that HSM song I was a gonna.

Crying my eyes out but after I’d finished the songs I began to feel better because I knew something good can come out of this.

You may not feel like it at the beginning but after time you soon begin to see.

Make sure you have your best friend there to dance to  Taylor’s ‘We are never getting back together’ loosing yourself to the music and letting go of all them feelings that need to burst out of you.

(Also you could get some icecream and a blanket and go through watching a whole series on Netflix).

I did that too. โ˜บ๏ธ

Kalli xxx
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P.S. Make sure to leave any songs you suggest might help get over a heartbreak in the comments.๐ŸŽถโ˜บ๏ธ


So my first blog post isn’t this exciting ๐Ÿ˜€ lol. Anyway I wanted to talk about GCSE’s and the years leading up to them. Hopefully you will get to understand how my experience is going and we can share our feelings together so we can be like one big family โค

So my GCSE course started in year 9 but we had to chose what subjects we were to take in year 8. Ik like so early, how are we meant to know what we want to do when we are 12-13!? Anyway i made the decision and here is what i took:

  • Art
  • GCSE Pe
  • History
  • German
  • Chemistyย 
  • Biology
  • Physics
  • English
  • Maths
  • PSE/ Re

All of the subjects inย blueย are the subjects everyone had to take and the ones in pink are the subjects i chose myself.

When i came to pick my subjects I had a really hard time deciding whether to chose between geography and history. I spent hours thinking everything through in my head, which one would be best for me . At some points I was getting quite worked up about it as it was constantly bugging me. I was scared in case I took the wrong one. Nobody knew how anxious i was getting, i was keeping everything to myself, letting no one in. I know now that I shouldn’t have been afraid to tell someone. If ever you feel this way, tell someone: your friend, your mom/dad, your guardian, anyone and they will help you. Nobody should feel alone when their going through this. I learnt from my mistakes and I want to help you make the right one.

Back to the GCSE’s {i got a bit sidetracked there, i tend to ramble on a bit}. So at my school we start our course in year 9. I’m in year 10 now so it was only a year ago. I wasn’t very focused last year even though i told myself at the start of year 9 I was going to concentrate and work hard for the next 3 years but that didn’t go to plan. I still worked fairly hard and kept at my target grades in most of my lessons.

I found some lessons really hard and didn’t understand the work a lot of the time but I didn’t ask for help. If you ever need help in anything don’t be afraid or embarrassed ย to ask, there’s nothing wrong with asking{that’s where i went wrong}. Your teacher won’t think anything bad of you, if anything they will be happy you asked them because they’re there to support and help you.

Art has become a big part in my life now ever since taking it up as a GCSE in year 9. I constantly have work to do at home. At the start of year 9 i really fell behind on my art work in school and ended spending a lot of my lunchtimes and after schools catching up on the work, which put a lot of stress on me as everyone else in the class would finish on time. Throughout the year I managed to organise my time management skills better and I started completing my work on time. My art teacher helped me quite a bit throughout the year, not getting mad at me or giving me detentions or calling home as that would have stressed me out even more so I thank her for that. Now I’m managing to keep up on top of my work and achieving some good grades. ๐Ÿ™‚

We had Mock exams at the end of year 9 and that didn’t go as well as I hoped them to go, but that can be for another post as there is a whole other story for that.

Year 10 has started of ok. My lessons are good, teachers are decent have my friends with me and were making it through the torture of school {lol}. I have 2 years before I take the exams that decide how I’m going to do later on in my lifeย so there’s bound to be more posts like this before then.

I hope you enjoyed this post, I know it is really long but I wanted to be able to write how I feel and how I’ve felt so I can help some of you guys if you ever feel the same way.

Bye x


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